My last post was about my next project of general cleaning and re-decorating our flat.  However, when my husband fetched me from work this afternoon, he sadly mentioned that the haris (caretaker) of the building told him that all tenants need to move out after Haj holidays.  Haj holidays?  Are they kidding?  It is barely 2 days from now and where on earth can we find ready flats for rent!   Apparently, the buildings were sold to another real estate office and that the new owner will renovate the 3 buildings.  If that happens; after applying fresh coats of paint and the flats re-modeled,  they will demand for higher rental fee. The news came as a bombshell because such short notice will displace us.  It is hard to scout for a new flat nowadys.  Thus, clever real estate businessman are in disguise of renovating the flat to bait for higher rental.

Moving out from a flat you called home for so many years entails struggle and to let go is to disassociate your emotional attachment to the house.  You need to psyche or make the mental decision to let go and focus that you won’t live here forever.

I did not have much sleep last night that is why I was yawning from time to time while in the office.  I started to talk to officemates and friends in case they know of any available flat but still I am not convinced that we will soon be transferring.  My fears are silly!  I hate moving because we had tons and boxes of clutter we have accumulated through the years and each one hold sentimental values.  Every nook and cranny of every room holds a special memory.   My children spend much of their youth in this home.

We called our flat our home and this is a source of pride and the personal touch and investments we had done to make this place homey with all the decor and improvements made us feel accomplished and satisfied.

Thing is we can’t stay here forever.  I am having separation anxiety because emotionally I am not ready, we are not ready.   In fact,  we wanted to stay…  However we have to look towards the future.  Never look backwards….

We will in time… and we are still hoping there will be positive changes coming before our lease contract expires.

For now, we are going to scout for a possible new address…